Tiring as it may be

The act of writing down my thoughts is tiring in comparison to just reviewing them in my head.
Which is why I want to return to writing more, and focus on making the most out of these thoughts.

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Review of my first week back home:

It was a great start of my 2 weeks off. After hearing an unnecessarily sad goodbye from my manager, I was invited to have dinner with some people from the Connaught house. Since it was the day before Aaron's wedding, many people who came out of town were staying over. So I got the chance to see some friends whom I rarely saw during the summer, like Leanne and Carson.

While I still find it uncomfortable, I am trying my best to not talk sheepishly about not making it into Laurentian's Social Work program. I want to embrace the perspective that the best thing for me to do is, to make use of what I have. I may not have gained as much as I could have, but I did gain a lot of experience and knowledge. To understand that, and to adjust what to say since I have acknowledged that many people have grimaced or tried to comfort me with words that I felt like a 'How are you' spoken out of obligation.

The trip down to my friend's wedding was pleasant. I do not trust this roommate, because of various poor character traits, but the trip was quite civil. We stopped at his home where I met his family and pets, from there Daniel picked us up. The scenery for the next while was beautiful.

The wedding were made with the idea of trying cut down costs, and the finished product were still gorgeous. Balls of vines littered with small LEDs were hanging in the tent. The flowers were all arranged and grown by the family, and instead of cups there were mason jars with a hole drilled on the lid. The reception was not just pretty, but had some simple and entertaining outdoor games.

Speeding up the timeline, since the we decided to stay at the wedding later than first anticipated, Daniel invited me to sleep over at his home. And like usual, our conversations carried for hours in the car. After catching up, he started supporting my idea of pursuing an 'ideal Marco'. He requested me to write up a list, and send it to him for review and accountability. With that, my motivation got pumped up for the next while.

With that, I am still working on that list, trying to focus on the points that are more realistic and urgent. I am having a hard time since there are so many things I want to improve upon.

Huh, I didn't even get to the point I was looking forward to writing the most. Oh yeah, I also want to return back to proofreading everything I write. However, I am not longer concerned over if people think less of me if I have spelling mistakes, but to make sure I am communicating well. (damn, every paragraph had something badly phrased. Haha.)