I find myself thinking about what will happen with the future relationships I have with my housemates.
I honestly, do not like being around most of them.
One guy acts as if he knows everything.
Another is always thinking that people are saying bad things about him, and I don't know why, but gossips a lot.
Then this girl is probably hearing everything, but just doesn't say anything (to me at least). And is always looking at me as if I am doing something weird.
The other girl just stays to herself, and thinks that being neutral is okay. (there is nothing wrong with that, but I'd prefer if she actually helped the house out)
So in the house, I don't know what people are saying about me.
I feel like an outcast, and they are just pretending to be nice to me.
I feel bad that I'm thinking "I can't wait for this year to be over so I'll be out of this house", because I loved this house last year.
But maybe this had something to do with me feeling like I was being too active last year.
Last year, I felt that I had a lot of activities going on around me, and I wanted to go to all of them.
I was giving enough time to myself, and just let myself ride the momentum.
Now that momentum is gone, and it's allowing me to move with my own strength.
I wonder what God has in plan for this situation.
It's true that I don't feel comfortable, nor safe with these people.
But there are other aspects of them that I put below what annoys/hurts me about them.
It's uncomfortable, but if I truly believe that God has great plans for all His believers, then I know that I have better things to worry about.
Sunday, February 3
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