The Start of something?

We talked at the beginning of the year.
I had an impression of her as an person who was not genuine with people.
And I was interested in seeing how she would react after hearing me tell her that.

Her response was outside of my expectations, where on a random bus ride, she told me about how she is putting together why she acts the way she does.
She acknowledged that she was not genuine with people, and wanted to tell me about it.
Wow.

At this moment, I'm really attracted to her, mostly because I realize that I am positively impacting her, and the whole notion of building honesty and trust is just something I really take to heart.

But this also means, that I am infatuated with her.
As I try to think as straight as I can, I come to conclusion that I do not know if I truly trust her or not.

We went to the cafe together, since she wanted to find a place wear she could share her story in private.
She shared a tale of how distorted her family was, I was reminded of my own history.
However, I made the decision to use this meeting to listen and observe.

Listen to her story, and asking her the essential questions (that I could think of).
And observe her reactions to the different things I say and do.

Ex. If I only sat there and stared at the window, only to glance at her once in a while, does she feel significantly less confident with sharing her story?

Ex. Taking off my hat did 2 things.
1) Reinforce the idea that we feel safe around each other, since I did this after she took of her hat.
2) Makes me appear to be more attentive than usual.
So how did she react when I started wearing my hat again?

Ex. If I stared at her, where do her eyes go?

Ex. How did she sit? How does it different from how she normally sits? Where are her hips facing?

And yeah....
I seem to feel more comfortable, being able to see that she accepts the quirky way that I am.
And she is trying her best to be open as possible, as she is changing herself for the better.

At the end of.... the date (I suppose I can call it), I was wondering about asking if she wanted to do this more regularly.
Yet.... I have not made the decision, if I truly want to seek a romantic relationship with her.
And since I have not made an intentional hints of 'I am interested in you', I refrained from asking her for another day.
Maybe I'll shoot her an email, including some questions about her story.
Yeah....

This is.... just something that has been on my mind, and will continue to be for a while.
I mean, I haven't met many girls who are seeking for my trust because they think it can help them.
Like wow, I still remember how her eyes looked back at me when I was asking her questions.
Unwavering. Focused.
Unlike any of the pictures, or the memories I have of her talking with others....

Huh. Or maybe my observation skills are skewed because of this infatuation.
Therefore I shared this with my house-mate to have him accountable.
Especially if I have trouble making good decisions.