Is this a good way to deal with these emotions?

I feel like the people I make relationships with keep failing.
How so?
Hm, maybe they fail my expectations?
But my expectations goes higher whenever we take another step in our friendship.
Do I feel like friendships fail to satisfy my neediness?

Maybe that's it.
Maybe friendship are bound to happen like this.
Maybe this is part of the ups and down in a friendship.

But what I am getting at, is that maybe I'm too focused on how people are seem to stop wanting to be my friend.
That makes me think, do I make other people feel the same way about me?

Have people invested in me, yet I've unknowingly failed to reciprocate?
I can think of some possible people.
And maybe these people are feeling the same way as I do.

Why doesn't Marco wanting to develop a stronger relationship with me?
Did I do something wrong?
I'm tired of Marco never taking the initiative.
Does it matter what I think?
*sigh*

I want to know if I am reciprocating (enough) in friendship.
And if not, what does the end result look like?
Or maybe, what can my goal be? How high can I set it?