Spamming posts about my love life

I have a lot of thoughts about my relationships.
Mostly because they are what brings out the emotions in me, and force me to make life-changing decisions.

I'm not depressed.
I am not embarrassed.
I'm quite fine honestly.

But I'm not sure.
Maybe I am, again, numbing myself of sadness.
If I am, then I will set into a state of depression some time soon.

But hopefully not, cause we faced each other one on one and talked everything through.
Voiced my thoughts about what I should focus on, and understand each other's views.
No harm done, and that conversation allowed other important topics to surface.
I'm happy about that, because....

No, I'm glad that it turn out that way.
I'm.... confused right now.
Mixed emotions, head heavy.
I feel like almost everybody (except for one person), expected the situation to turn out the way it did.
I feel dumb, though I expect to say that I shouldn't.
I'm just tired.
I can pretend to be happy, and get my body to alleviate the stream of emotion.
But I think I'll just feel them, for however long it lasts.

I'm sad, I know it.