Right After

So a question that I have been asking myself is "What have I gain this year?"

This question is asked mostly because I am feeling as if I have lost a lot finding out that I was not accepted into the SW professional year.
And trying to look at it with another perspective, all I lost was an opportunity. And what else?
Maybe lost another school year.

My pride is hurt.
I feel inferior. Now I will see 1st years (whom I met this year) who will graduate before me.

But let us see if I truly lost so much.
Because if I did not gain anything valuable this year, then I have truly lost a lot this year.
Annnd of course I gain experiences this year, now I just have to review and reflect.

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Now that I think about it, just being in Sudbury may be allowing me to have a healthier way of dealing with my failure in school.
Throughout elementary school and high school, most of my friends did well academically, and usually have higher grades than me. I felt like that is the norm. To achieve good grades and to be friends with people who had similar grades. And if you were not at their level, you were inferior.

I, had average grades. Always at the 70's, and felt happy when my grade finished a little above the 80% mark. But of course I had to rejoice secretly, it was normal for everybody else.

And now I have different friends. Not only are they different than the friends I had during my teens, there is a greater variety in what are their norms.

Of course there are the high achievers. And on the other extreme, I've met people who have failed.
And I need to truthful, my grades right now put me in the end with the people who've failed.

And hey, when I mean by failed, it means that our marks weren't high enough. Not that we actually failed our courses. XD

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But yeah, I have met this girl who has experienced failing to get into her wanted program, 3 times.
And I was talking to her yesterday, hearing about how she was learning every year. She was not getting into her program, but she was doing something useful with her life.

And she asked me if I had gained anything this year?
If I had not, then I had truly lost a year.