I am tired.

so so tired.

So many things happening around me.

Car crash happened right in front of me today.

Along with a police chase while going home.

Talking with people, compared to talking to people while being tired has a big difference.

People I want to talk to but because of certain circumstances, it feels like it cannot ever work out.

I do want to be grateful for how great VBC is going.

Last thing on my mind.

My sister and I got into a physical fight today.

It was pretty bad.

No joke, I got scared of my sister.

Still, even though I knew that I shouldn't have raised my hand, I couldn't stop.

It went from trashing the room together, trying to telling to clean the room with me, wrestling on the ground, her kicking my balls repeatedly, using an umbrella to stop her from running upstairs, her trying to pound me with a chair, me using a door as a shield and the umbrella, she went full charge at me and I finished her with a 5 hit combo.

This has been the worse fight between us, and I know she is not going to talk to me for several days.

I can't see us not getting back together again, but I'm scared of how bad the next time will get.

Cause what if next time she doesn't start crying and plead that she will clean the room.

And then Mom heard us. She separated us after lecturing us, then talked to us both individually, then fumed at Dad for just sitting in the room watching TV.

THEN he has the nerve to come and lecture me, repeating what Mom and I said as if he never heard our conversation.

I shouldn't be using Dad as an excuse, but I dunno.... I'm in the wrong light but I still do not feel wrong.

I do not understand.

Is my pride in the way that much?

REALLY? REALLY?