The Faith

What is stopping me from believing?

Asked a stranger sitting with his laptop.

Beside him, I sat and repeated:

What is stopping ME from believing....?

I opened up, he took in.

He proclaimed, I hesitate.

Boom, another stranger drops in.

She joins in, listening.

What is STOPPING me from believing?

Proof? Miracles?

People? Christians?

Brainwash? Lack of prayer?

I scatter my thoughts at possibilities.

The proof? The miracles?

Etc etc etc. I touched them already.

I need faith!

This illogical thing called faith that tastes the same as a gamble.

A gamble that is X risk, and Y return.

But the risk is 3 to 80 years, and gamble of the return of 80 to infinity.

But I don't take no risk.

I don't touch this stuff for the fun of it.

In the end, no answer made it's way in.

All I know is that I can only pray.

ONLY pray.