At the Boulangerie

I don't really feel like telling my co-workers this.
I don't feel motivated to work.

When I come home, I feel like I'm just putting myself at risk for embarrassment.
I worry if I will do everything right or not tomorrow.

Should I be motivated for the money?
Money that is going to be spent paying off my OSAP?
Or maybe I want my motivation to come from trying to make my customer's day a little better?
Did I tell you? I got my first personal tip from an old lady yesterday!

And maybe I should realize that working somewhere, is better than not working at all.
Look at this, I took home $30 worth of leftover food.
I'm getting paid above minimum wage.
I'm working at a safe place.
I am learning at a good pace.

How do I appreciate this job I have?
I don't want to appreciate it by 'just doing it'.
And I don't want to appreciate it by losing the job, though that's just something within my wants.
Hm.