No, you shut up.

I've totally shut a part of my mind away this reading week.

There's this mode that I go into whenever I can, where everything I do is to just pass time.

It's pretty disgusting when you think about it, just sitting in front of the computer, listening to music, playing games, allowing myself to be tempted by lust, overeating, oversleeping....

I did that when I was a kid, every summer. So maybe that's why it's easy.

I only jumped out of that when I got to have the house all by myself.

I shut off my computer and my lights. And just laid on some pillows I set on the ground, and just did not think.

Not 'think of nothing', because when you think of nothing, you are thinking about something. And thinking about something.... is thinking.

And it works.

I noticed that my body was recovering well, but my mental state was going nowhere. It was pretty stale.

It would have been pretty cool if I rested and a surge of magical energy powered me up enough to finish all my homework I put off during reading week.

But, no.

All I could do was use the rest of my time as efficiently as possible.

That's right, all I can do.

Trying to do all I can do.

How else am I going to satisfied.

- - - - -

That said, I did have a lot of fun running around the house bullying my sister.

Screaming "Oh baby" in the phone whenever she talked to guys.

Throwing karate punches at Mom.

Crawling to Mom's door, and whispering to her "I'm going kill you" with my sister.

Sharing stories, and telling my sister that I am not gay just because I haven't dated anyone.

It'd probably be pretty scary to see our family holding our stomachs due to cramps, gotten from laughing too much/hard.

Whoops sorry, our family minus Dad.